|Me, Age 20|
In 2005, things went really awry in my life. An argument over women and money led to the ending of a friendship like no other I have ever had the grace to experience. I was suffering a deep depression due to excessive drinking (though I didn't know it at the time) and due to the upcoming anniversary of the death of my son. I was alone in sorrow and though I have omitted stories that would have your heart breaking and oozing with sympathy, I in no way am making excuses for my actions. At every turn it was my conscious choice; life offered me many roads, it was I who chose to walk the ones I did. The point is that this is when I was introduced to Crack.
Now that I have, as briefly as possible, brought you up to speed on my experience with addiction I want you to know why. I am sharing this so that you know in my future posts that I know what I'm talking about. I have lived it and breathed it. It is also another piece to the puzzle of who I am and how I came to be. To say that overcoming my addiction was a struggle is to sell myself, and those who supported me, short of the accomplishment. The next post in this series will be to share with you the logic and mindset of an addict with the purpose of demonstrating how 'John the Person' is completely different and separated from 'John the Addict'.
I hope that as I move forward with this series that you will learn something about addiction, learn how to identify it, but most importantly, learn how to deal with it. It is no easy task to expose one's great failures in life but to quote a great and ancient wise-man, Confucius:
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."